Weak in Reality But Strong in My Eyes

How can I be closer to God? It is my greatest goal. I don't act like it. It isn't my central driving motivation in all that I do. I want it to be. In theory it seems to be so easy to accomplish but in reality the difficulty is perplexing.
This shows my weakness!
Another complication of this problem is how I forget to let the sovereign Lord of all things take control of my motivations and, as a result, my actions.
This shows my pride!
When I try to get closer to God I do it on myself. I fail.
When I remember that I need God's strength I do okay. But I forget and I fail.
I've found an up side. This is a two-steps-forward-one-step-back process, which equals progress, however frustrating it might be. Every time it gets better too. This encourages me to keep trying. So I think I will.