Prayer

I'm so thankful for the community that God has dropped me in. at MOC in our life group we spent the whole time praying for my dad and my family and i really felt God's love through them. God has shown me lately a new reason to love Him. He just put on my heart how even though i feel helpless in this situation with my dad's sickness i'm not. Prayer is so powerfull because God wants to say yes to our prayers.
-James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another so that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous man can accomplish much.
it has been really amazing to see the number of righteous men a women that are praying for my dad, for my family and for me. it thank you all and thank God for you and i ask and pray that you would keep praying strongly. all this made me think of how not having faith in God has to be so hard. i could see it leading to compleate dispair not knowing that God is working for us and loves us. that has to be such a dark place. so i also ask that you pray for the people in you life that don't have that and that they would find the hope and peace that comes with knowing God. if that is you: know that God does love you and wants you to come to him. it's not just some kind of religiuos, superstitious wacked out crap. it is real and i feel it and see it. in addition i've learned that as christians it is our responsibility and calling to pray for eachother.
-Ephesians 6:18 With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints,
And there is a stregth in numbers when praying.
-2 Corinthians 1:11 you also joining in helping us through your prayers, so that thanks may be given by many persons on our behalf for the favor bestowed on us through the prayers of many.
these thoughts have given me real peace and hope and i wish the same for you.

My return to blogging

i tried to blog before but i didn't have much to say or many people to listen. so here is attempt number two. i'll try to be thoughtfull, interesting, fun, cool and random. that might be a high goal but that's the plan for now.

my first post is gonna be a little sad: my dad has cancer and i just got back from visting the family. most of the time i don't know what to think about anything. but when my thoughts are making some sense i mostly think about how much my family loves me. especialy my dad. there is no one that i look up to as much as my dad. he is such an example of how a godly man should be. he is loving, wise, strong, and a great leader. he was once (in my eyes at least) of infinite power and strength. but now he can't even hug people because he could get sick easy. but when i was saying my goodbyes he hugged me like it was imposible to let me go with out it. i don't understand what God's plan is and i feel like everything is very surrreal and a little bit like i'm not really here. i don't know if my arms are touching anything even though i know they are. i'm detatched from the world a little bit right now and i'm ok with that. it helps me see that what is going on here is not all that is going on. in the middle of all this chaos i know that God has his hand here and that he is loving and all knowing and all powerfull and i can feel him. i don't really know how in one part of my life things can be so crappy and crewed up and i don't know what God is doing but at the same time there can be such great things happening and i can see the good that God is doing. also there is comfort in knowing that God will not put us through anything that we can't handle. God is so good. i love Him b/c He chooses to not see my sins but rather see me as clean and perfect even though he knows that i am not.